In the Wake

Break my body, but heal my heart

Vodka one ice in my astrology chart

Razors your sound can drown

Blood letting I’m homeward bound…

CHORUS:

If I could smoke you away,

Drink you away, sex you away

It would be worth the price I’d pay

Break my body but heal my heart

Broke with a vengeance is the place to start

Easy to suck it down

Impossible to get you gone

CHORUS:

If I could smoke you away,

Drink you away, sex you away

It would be worth the price I’d pay

BRIDGE:

Why must you linger

In my clothes and my hair

Why can’t I shake you

From my bones and my skin

Must I break this body to heal this heart

Smashed my halo in the trail of you

Even God can’t know what a woman will do

To wash out the taste of love

To drown out her hopeful heart

CHORUS:

If I could smoke you away

Drink you away, sex you away

It would be worth the price I’d pay

I’d be worth any price I’d pay…

You get what you ask for, but I never ask

Learning to get more, is a tedious task

And I’ve been settlin’, I’ve been settlin’

I’ve been settlin’, I’ve been settlin’

For not much of your time.....

For not much of your time

We get what we go for, but I never go

we win what we fight for, but I can’t keep the score

And I’ve been settlin’ , I’ve been strugglin’

I’ve been settlin’, I’ve been sufferin’

For not much of your heart.......

For not much of your heart

You got what you came for, with a dubious crime

All of this pain for , just a wrinkle in time

And I’ve been settlin’ , I’ve been settlin’

I’ve been settlin’ I’ve been settlin’

for too much overdrive............

Now I’m missin’ the whole ride

You get what you ask for, but I never ask

Learning to get more , is a tedious task

And I’ve been strugglin’

I’m still setttlin.............

Hey but you get what you ask for......

for...... for......

You think that if you give her, even just a little…

That she won’t need you anymore – even just a little…

As the doors go slamming in your face

Again you win your lonely race – only by a little…

CHORUS:

Even just one little word breaks the silence in the room

Better yet the gentle heart makes one word begin to bloom

Water to the flower she’s the tropics on the moon

Boy you can’t come around too soon

She thinks that if she holds you, even just a little

That you won’t live so fast and hard – even just a little…

And the doors that were slamming in your face

Will open up to show you grace – if only just a little…

CHORUS:

Even just one little word breaks the silence in the room

Better yet the gentle heart makes one word begin to bloom

Water to the flower she’s the tropics on the moon

Boy you can’t come around too soon

Bridge:

Tears in her eyes

Why so surprised?

Drop your disguise

Will you ever learn?

You know that if you gave her- even just a little

You’d get back more than tenfold – more than just a Little….

Any door can open anyday

If we can find the love to say

Just a little more…

You wear

Your heart

Out on

Your Sleeve

You bear

Your soul

For all

To see

Chorus:

But you’re the one I love

With your sweet assortment of tragic flaws

You’re the way I see

Past the pious and the heartless breed.

You drink

You weep

While others

Sleep

You laugh

Out loud

Above

The crowd

Chorus:

But you’re the one I love

With your sweet assortment of tragic flaws

You’re the way I see

Past the pious and the heartless breed.

You’d give

Away

Your own

Last dime

To see

The smile

In my

Blue eyes

Chorus:

But you’re the one I love

With your sweet assortment of tragic flaws

You’re the way I see

Past the pious and the heartless breed.

You wear

Your heart

Out on

Your Sleeve

I hear the phone ring, then your hallowed voice

I watch the clock turn, midnight on its course

Her yellow eyes burn, a hex upon the black

I feel a stone chill, creeping up my back

CHORUS:

If I turn up dead, I didn’t kill myself

If I turn up dead, remember I called you

If I turn up dead, I wouldn’t kill myself

If I turn up dead, her tears will not be true

I see the blood red of your words inside my head

A thousand miles away, helpless so I pray

That you’ll find your way to you, to the child inside the man

Dig your soul into the earth, into it’s own intrinsic worth

CHORUS:

If I turn up dead, I didn’t kill myself

If I turn up dead, remember I called you

If I turn up dead, I wouldn’t kill myself

If I turn up dead, her sorrow won’t be true

BRIDGE:

All your threats through steely eyes

You break the man you break his ties

To everything that’s bright and true

To everything that is not you

CHORUS:

If I turn up dead, I didn’t kill myself

If I turn up dead, remember I called you

If I turn up dead, I wouldn’t kill myself

If I turn up dead, her sorrow won’t be true

If I turn up dead, she’s dropped the other shoe

Remember I called you….

This hazy melancholy mood

Shines just like the perfect jewel

but fools would call me such a fool

To sit all day and dream of you

The people passing on the street

Won’t see the tear or feel the heat

That comes with thinking thoughts of you

That make me happy while I’m blue

Come home to me

Come home to me

Now I don’t mind a breaking heart

Or weeping gently in the dark

But I can’t shake your deep blue eyes

Feel of a whisper, a thousand sighs

Come home to me

Come home to me

Come home to me

There’s a bone orchard

in the wake of you life

There’s dust in your day

And chalk in your night

There’s a nerve that’ll cut you

Right down to the quick

If you ever find the spine

To finally admit:

That you’re mean….

I don’t really know why – maybe you don’t either

But you’re mean

There’s a heart in my gut - In the wake of your strike

A trap door to the left – a fuse to the right

In your temple of skulls

But I’ll dig my own way out

Of your bone…orchard

In the wake of my life

I’ll get clean

I don’t really know how…it wouldn’t matter to you

But I’ll get clean

There’s a child with a song

On a hill to the south

The words of the sages

just spill from her mouth

The wisdom of her is the solice you need

But you’d rather die

And save face than concede

That you’re mean

you don’t really know why – God knows I don’t either

But I’ll get clean

I don’t really know how…it wouldn’t matter to you

I’ll get clean…..

I left my heart in the Texas hills

Underneath the hay rolls and the old windmills

In one of a hundred sleepy towns

Where the wind still turns my heart around

CHORUS:

These old farmers roads

Follow me wherever I go

I can see your easy smile

As I clock another country mile

And you’re still on my mind

A decade down the line

I cross the white line on the highway

Just like I crossed my hear with yours

A laugh we shared is headed my way

And so I laugh until I cry

CHORUS:

These old farmers roads

Follow me wherever I go

I can see your easy smile

As I clock another country mile

And you’re still on my mind

A decade down the line

BRIDGE:

The Texas sun is blinding, any hope of our horizon

If true love is meant to be, can’t the stars light up this road for me

A decade in the lovers’ dark, and you’re still in my broken heart

These tireless farmers work all day

They sweat they cuss, and God they pray

They know the way the soil is sewn

But they know it’s something they can’t own

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CHORUS

These old country roads

Follow me wherever I go

I can see your easy smile

As I clock another lovers’ mile

And you’re still on my mind

A decade down the line

He said “you’d better look me in the eye,”

I said, “I’m not that brave and I’m not that high.”

He said, “There is a price to pay,”

I said, “Show me the gold and I just might stay.”

CHORUS:

But don’t you - tell me my life -

I am livin’ this alone

You can’t see from my perspective -

How this - world can look so wrong

Oh don’t you tell me my life

If I’m not livin’ right

I’ll just push the envelope further

Until I find my way home

He said, “ you know the cards are all the same -

Hey the joker is sleepin’ with your ace tonight....”

I said, “you’re drivin’ me insane -

Yeah your words of wisdom are like venom to my brain.”

CHORUS:

But don’t you - tell me my life -

I am livin’ this alone

You can’t see from my perspective -

How this - world can look so wrong

He said, “you’d better look me in the eye.”

I said, “I’m past the pain and I’m way too high.”

He said, “There is a price to pay.”

I said, “show me the gold and I still won’t stay.

And don’t you tell me my life

I am livin’ this alone

I can’t see from your perspective

How my world can look so wrong…

So don’t you tell me my life

If I’m not livin’ right

I’ll just push the envelope further

Until I find my way home

Hey said you’d better look me in the eye

I said I’m past the pain and I’m way too high

I know this feeling, can’t be the end

Something so sacred, why we begin.

I feel this feeling, coming to an end.

I know these worries, (that) we can’t lay down

Fly like snow flurries, when we turn around

They’re just as weightless, as our feet on the ground

I know the evening, and I’ve seen the morning through

Something’s always turning, me back into you.

Dreaming on the lawn, under streetlights in the dawn.

And I know the daybreak, is darker than the nightfall

Every tender secret, wears an iron shall

But I know this feeling, can’t be the end.

Something small is stirring, in a corner far away

Deep inside a heart that holds itself at bay.

So I know this feeling, won’t be the end.

I see a new hope, right around the bend.

I know….

Why must you carry the weight of the world?

Laden with worries you wear them like pearls,

Strung round your neck and then laced in your curls

What you hold as precious is killing you girl….

You can’t brood on the moon

And write your story in stone

Chorus:

Deep in the dark of your ocean of dreams

Lies the gem of your heart in its purest serene

Lift up the treasure and see what she sings

Aphrodesian elixir is the sweet of the cream

You trudge your way through the swamps of the land,

Then wait by the river – your heart in quicksand

Diamonds and rubies afloat on the Nile

But you will not claim them – they might make you smile….

You can’t brood on the moon

And write your story in stone

Chorus:

Deep in the dark of your ocean of dreams

Lies the gem of your heart in its purest serene

Lift up the treasure and see what she sings

Aphrodesian elixir is the sweet of the cream

Cast all your pearls into the fountain of youth

Rubies get ripe when you drown them in cream

Ladles of sapphires on the tips of your lips

Can’t you taste the blue in the ruby of green?

Pour out the wine, from the challis of the graced

Pressed so hard up to love, we’ve missed the softness of the space.

I know my calloused hands swept cruel across your face.

Whatever once was beautiful got lost in our embrace…

CHORUS:

Countless raw emotions, in isolated jars

In a foreign constellation, light years from our stars

The sad azure sky, the crest-fallen snow,

And the sunburst of beating hearts glow…

If I fill up your wanting cup, with apologies and tears

Will your sorrow runneth over into the vagueness of the years

Into the cornucopia of the loving and the loved

Where trembling hands find stillness in the tender and the doved.

CHORUS:

Countless raw emotions, in isolated jars

In a foreign constellation, light years from our stars

The sad azure sky, the crestfallen snow

And the sunburst of beating hearts glow…

If I hold up this mirror, will I see what I reflect?

Or just someone else’s vision of who I wish I could forget

Inside the cornucopia and the challis of the graced,

Pressed so hard up to love I’ve missed the softness of the space.

Some say that time is a trip on your memory

but you’re telling me that I don’t see what I know I see

You’re hiding queens while my hearts lie on the table

And I’m getting dizzy running round your vicious circles

Why in the world would you make our love a mockery

How in your head did you think that I wouldn’t see

Why so surprised that I’ve trumped you with the truth

Now you’re begging me to stay, since I’ve given you the boot- well-

Chorus:

No thank you baby - I’m not that hard up for a lover

No thank you baby - My heart is running for the cover

Some say that time is a trip on your memory

I say that time is voyeur for the truth

After 66 lies, your telling me the final one

You swear you’re gonna change if I just give you another chance-

Chorus:

No thank you baby - I’m not that hard up for a lover

No thank you baby - My heart is running for the cover

Some say that time is a trip on your memory

You’re telling me that I don’t see what I know I see - well

No thank you baby - I’m not that hard up for a lover

No thank you baby - My heart is runnin’ for the cover

No thank you baby - I’m not that hard up for a lover

No thank you baby- I’M NOT THAT HARD UP!